| well, i guess she does now, but "home" is where the heart is, and it should be well known that i've had ownership of her heart for almost 4 years now. so why did she leave me? everyone seems to be doing it nowadays. i'm supposedly one of the lucky ones. my parents want to keep me in the same school my whole life; they have no plans on moving till after i graduate. but no, i want more. i want new. i want to join the crowd and get the fuck out of this town. all i can do is wait, i suppose. oh, the joys of being 16. so what's new in life, laura? uhm, yeah, everything sucks. which is why i resorted to letting myself vent in a blog. i'm aware of the fact that i'm just at "that age": that time in everyone's life where they're supposedly smothered in the drama, the heartache, the family problems and just the growing up in general. but still, i feel so hopelessly alone. no one gets what i'm feeling. no one understands or comprehends what the fuck is going on in my brain. either that, or no one really gives a fuck. and i know i must be an idiot for thinking anyone should care about me at all. now, i apologize to the few people who really have been there for me all along, because if it weren't for you guys, i'd literally be shriveled up and 6 feet under by now. mere existance is the only reason i have for getting up in the morning, and that's just down right pathetic. i can't stand another second in this family. i refuse to listen to my mom's stupid complaints any longer. i don't want to listen to another fight, another argument, another unrewarding discussion in this family. i'm happiest when they're gone.. minus the fact that i can't get very far on my own two feet. oh, the joys of being 16.
i need a car, some money, 2 (or 5) years of age, and some friends to take to mexico.
that's it. "i want to run away, i want to ditch my life, cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night" - relient k, bitches. |
